Thoughts

So I realize I just posted about an hour ago, but as I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep I had a lot running through my mind, and I figured what better place to rant than my blog =)

Today was a crazy day--being so nervous about the mile run, running the hardest I ever have, never feeling so disappointed in myself after such a big PR...lots and lots of energy spent. After the run was done and I could finally start to regather my balance and my legs, I really only had one thought running through mind..."I was so close, just 5 seconds and everything else I have to do is a breeze!"

This train of thought continued to occupy me until just a little while ago, as I was staring up at the ceiling and realized a few things:

1) Running is my ULTIMATE goat. BUT, it doesn't matter how much or how well I can do of any other exercise. If I only focused on those things I do well, then I'd be missing one of the real beauties of CrossFit in its ability to expose our weakness and train us to be fit all-around. Even though I feel like I perform generally well during WODs, it's no doubt that if there's running in a workout I'm seriously lagging in my numbers.

In past workouts involving running, it's almost as if I would give in and accept that I would do crappy during the WOD. It's the complete opposite of my other goats that I tend to give a lot more determination and training to, but since it was always a big goat, I allowed myself to create that mental outlook.

2) I have an amazing month of training up ahead of me!! When I really start to think about the PR I had today after not running for so long, it gets me so excited to think about how with continuous training this month, I could seriously knock that 9-minute standard out of the water at the next testing date. I have posted about my troubles with running time and time again in the past, and I feel like today was the major kickstart I needed to start ironing out my weakness instead of hiding from it. 

There have only been a few times where I've been seriously down on myself in the gym, and every time that happens it only takes me that day to realize that it's the exact opposite of who I am, how I want to be, and what this whole process was meant to be. Even though I can forget this from time to time, I truly believe in the power of personal progress rather than comparative progress. As only Bill and Colin and a couple of other CrossFit friends could know, my fitness now versus nine month ago is seriously night and day. I am so excited for every PR someone hits in the gym, no matter how big or small, and it's an appreciation I should probably start to offer myself every once in a while =)

3) Last, but absolutely not least, our CFV crew is AMAZING!! I was so thankful to have your support and encouragement today. Not to sound too cheesy, but you all are an incredible blessing. You push me so hard to do things I never thought I could ever do, and I am so grateful to have you in my life.

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Hamstring Notes: Crazy thing about today was that my hamstring tightened up on the warmup run, even though after the actual mile was done it was fine. That could be because of adrenaline or the fact that my glutes and legs were burning like crazy all around (just touching them was painful!), but interesting still since I sprinted that last 400m so hard.